Having fun

I spent the afternoon at the park today with a couple of mates. I felt like i was a teenager all over again,hanging out doing nothing with nothing to worry about. We sat around talking,remembering high school and the crazy things we did and wore back then like it was soo long ago..a distant memory strained to remember. We talked about how back then..we could never imagine life after school,how we were determined to 'make it work' and stay the bestest friends that we had been all through school. Being a '20 something' seemed like forever away when we were at high school and now..being '20 somethings' is lasting forever. We complained...alot!! None of us have children yet,nearly all of us have jobs..none of us have actually decided what we want to do with our lives but for some reason we all feel like we have the weight of the world on our shoulders.

Best of all...we talked about how great it would of been to have been the ones to 'make it work'

Ok,so we stayed in contact through college but after that..the last 2/3yrs have left us with on/off contact..being in different cities..sometimes different countries meant that we just didnt make the effort that we should have. But now that some of us are back in our home town..back in the place we know best..we can meet up and act like we've never been apart..like the last 2/3yrs are just in our imagination and though we've changed and experienced new things...ultimately we are still the same people deep down and the things that drew us to each other and made us friends in the first place are still the same!

For a change,i handed my camera over to someone else and instead of being behind it i was infront of it. Im still not completely comfortable with it..but whats the point of being with friends if you cant feel comfortable with them. It was just like the good old days all over again..god ive missed these guys over the last 2yrs. It looks like im gonna be back home for a while now..at least until i have the money to move away again so im definately going to make the effort to meet up with them more often...even if all we do is hang around at the park or go to the pub for a few too many beers.

Its soo much fun being yourself around your friends and not having to act like a grown up anymore..i need to do this more often..i need to get the fun back into my life and stuff worrying about everything. I know we all need to worry sometimes..worrying is part of what makes us human..and if i didnt worry about where my money is gonna come from and what im going to do with the rest of my life..well there wouldnt be much point would there?! But eventually...we all have to just learn that there is more to life than money and sometimes..not knowing what your going to do is the best part..it leaves us more free to experience new things. Life is all about learning and i intend to learn in my own good way!